As the Ruin Falls

image“All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you.

I never had a selfless thought since I was born.

I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through:

I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.


Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek,

I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:

I talk of love –a scholar’s parrot may talk Greek–

But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.


Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack.

I see the chasm. And everything you are was making

My heart into a bridge by which I might get back

From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.


For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains

You give me are more precious than all other gains.”


                                                                    ——-C S Lewis


Filed under C. S. Lewis, Poetry

4 responses to “As the Ruin Falls

  1. Enjoyed 🙂 love lewis

  2. Steven

    You talkin’ to me?
    Just yesterday I thought I have no clue what love is. Love “affairs” sure, gone for some wild rides. And that is surely a blessing, that people have loved me.
    Married now many years, children. I’m over 60 now. But have I really loved? Loved back? Or just taken? Hurt and angry people have said to me “It’s always about you, isn’t it?”. Maybe it’s true. God has poured out His love to me. I’m just resentful.
    I’m afraid to ask God to teach me what love is.

    “Deep into Autumn
    and this caterpillar
    still not a butterfly.”

  3. Reblogged this on multicolouredsmartypants and commented:
    Why is it that sometimes it is only in the darkness that we comprehend how brightly shines the light?
    All is grace 🙂

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