I don’t exactly know why, but a few years ago I felt a real spiritual unction to study Christian Mysticism. My first thought was to look at the experiences of the monks of the desert. These Desert Fathers fled to the parched lands of Egypt to escape the “one size fits all” Christianity of Constantine’s Empire. The Abbas of the desert wanted to experience God as they thought He wanted to be experienced. That experience would not come as a result of legislated belief at the point of the sword of a Roman Legion. That kind of belief was no belief at all, for such a faith had to be discovered within their own souls. They could experience God in a mysterious way in their desert monasteries, and then direct others by sharing these experiences. God is a mystery, and He is best seen in a mystical way. In the desert they would find the Spirit that had apparently left the organized church, and indeed, they did. They were the first mystics.
Many factors prohibited this mystical movement from being the major driving force of the church. All throughout history there have been famous mystics. Notable ones are, Julian of Norwich, John of the Cross, Teresa of Avila, Bernard of Clairvaux, and Ignatius of Loyola. I wanted to learn as much from them as I could, but in the middle of that experience something happened to my own way of thinking. Suddenly, the idea of certainty of belief was replaced with a deep, abiding appreciation for the mysterious nature of God. After all belief in God is mystery, not certainty, and can best be understood through the eyes of the mystic.
I don’t claim to be a Christian mystic at the level of the people I have mentioned, but I do contend that thinking as a mystic can open new panoramas of faith. These panoramas can lead to a much broader view of the work of God, and a more intimate involvement with Him. Things like meditation, Lectio Divina, silence, and icons have taken on a new meaning in my life. They have become invitations to spiritual portals that I never knew existed.
Major realities I discovered by embracing Christian Mysticism:
- God does live within me
- God really speaks to me (not audibly)
- God protects me at all times
- God gives me strength beyond my ability
- God owes me nothing
- Evil wins sometime
- Suffering is a spiritual discipline
- Scripture is the Word of God and it still lives
- Silence is the loudest prayer
- Silence is a portal to God
- There is more than one right answer
My journey into mysticism has not so much brought me closer to God, as it has helped me to understand how far I have to go. Jubilantly, I can say that I am not alone on the journey. He is with me! The mystical, monastic journey brought me to the desert of my soul, and there I found the face of God. I continue to travel through that desert with the traveling companions I have discovered. Thanks for reading this story and the other stories that I have written about these mystics who have become my friends.
- Introduction to Mysticism (pursuingfolly.wordpress.com)
11 responses to “Discovering the Desert of My Soul”
It is a privilege to follow (a long way behind) in your footsteps by the reading of this blog. Thank you.
Thanks, but remember, we all follow the path the He lays open for us. “The last shall be first and the first shall be last.”
Don’t worry, no wobbly pedestals, just an awareness that it is always a privilege to meet Christ in all the different folk I meet and learn from (or read) – and a genuine desire to say thank you and to give encouragement.
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Thanks for sharing this moment in your journey.
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I stumbled on your blog through a wordpress search engine, since I too, have been blogging about the intimacy and mystery of God (which is what I think Christian mysticism is all about) and Ignatius of Loyola. Your listing of realities you discovered in your pursuit closely mirror my own experiences. It’s really beautiful and isolating at the same time, since it is almost impossible to put into words with others.
Thanks for sharing.
Thanks Leah, it good to hear from you.
Thank you for finding my blog, which led me to yours. I look forward to sharing the insights of your journey.
Such beautiful thoughts and findings. Some aspects feel similar to the spiritual findings I have seen. Thank you for sharing Irvin…
Thanks for the feedback–keep on pondering.